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Anxious For Nothing

Anxious For Nothing

This morning as I sit on the front porch enjoying a cool breeze before the heat wave kicks back in, I am trying to not freak out that school starts for us in 24 days (25 if you count today) and the school room isn’t ready and I have 2 straggling books that are on back order and might not come in on time (one for Lyds and one for AB) and I was finally getting used to the SLOW summer schedule. I’m taking on a tutor role at the girls’ school with CC this fall. It also is the first time I will have the responsibility of teaching 2 students at the same time in 2 different grades and juggling Malachi who will be a walking active squealing 18 mo old. I know I will have a lot to juggle and all of this gives me anxiety.

Every time I even utter the word anxiety, I am gently reminded of the verse “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God”. That gives me such peace! Duh! He’s got this. He always has taken care of me and my silly stressors. At the beginning to the summer, a dear friend shared something with me, and to her it was such a quick comment and she was on to the next comment half a second later but it made me pause…in the Kingdom of God does this ( whatever I’m freaking out over ) even matter? What a great way to frame it. First of all, I’m thrilled to have friends who are kingdom focused…cause that’s what it is all about anyways, right? But seriously, when it boils down to it, when we have reached the end, will I care about whether my files and containers and school supplies are color and grade coordinated?  As I am tutoring 8 little precious 4-6 year olds every Friday, will it matter that my voice cracked as I sang the timeline song and tried to sing the preposition song in a silly way to help them remember? Will it matter if I looked like a hot mess with Malachi’s snot smeared on the shoulder of my black shirt which will be super visible because my tangly hair will be pulled up in a pony because I struggled to get 3 kids out the door and across town before 8:45am? So what it Lydia’s math work book is on back order and she doesn’t get the perfect start to Kindergarten that I in my control freak brain have planned!

This is the part of the post that I usually hang back on because I am anxious (lol) about sharing anything preachy or scripture based because I question myself and fear that it isn’t theologically sound. Once you put this out there, readers can be vicious. But today, today I am going to go there!

Matthew 24:35 says Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away.

Then you can read in Isaiah where it takes it even deeper. It says in Isaiah 51:6 Lift up your eyes to the heavens, look at the earth beneath; the heavens will vanish like smoke, the earth will wear out like a garment and its inhabitants die like flies. But my salvation will last forever, my righteousness will never fail.

What is going to last, not my silly anxieties. Yes, I know that God cares about all my small stuff. I am not disregarding that. But I’m focusing on the big picture. I don’t want to get to the end and have missed the point all along. Math books, school supplies, things being perfect and tidy….they will pass away!!! Salvation, His kingdom, righteousness….they will never fail.

What do I want to teach my children…no I’m not talking about lesson plans. I am talking about what they learn from just watching me. Do I want them to see me stressing and snapping over such petty things in the whole scheme of things? Or do I want them to see me calm, steady and kingdom focused? What a great reminder as I enter this coming school year. (I think I might add this post to the lesson plans though.)

Today, I will sit on the porch and start reading a book I read 15 years ago, when I had not a care in the world, newly married and not one of the above anxiety causers in my life. I will sip on coffee and enjoy this breeze and let HIS peace wash over me and I will be anxious for nothing!

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10 Comments

  1. I got to your blog from the CC Facebook page and I’m so glad I did! Such good thoughts this morning, and I have enjoyed browsing around and reading some of your other post too.

    • I almost didn’t share it on the CC page this morning. It’s one thing to be transparent to your 400 Facebook friends but it is totally another thing to share it with all the CC moms that I do not know. So there you go. This is a glimpse into my life. I try to be obedient to HIM. Glad you enjoyed it!

  2. Beautifully written!! We all fall into those “anxiety” traps, but having Godly friends and as you stated, “who are kingdom focused,” affords us the ability to refocus on what is important again. I’m so glad a friend shared your page! What a blessing it was this morning!

    • Oh good! Thank you for sharing. I am glad you were encouraged.

  3. Thank you for the gentle reminder. He has this and even when we step into more responsibility for CC, he has it all. I have been anxious for my homeschool year with my own kiddos and as I pray I am experiencing his peace.

    • Any time I start to doubt or get anxious I quickly remind myself He’s got it! He always has. He has never failed! There is nothing that can replace that PEACE! So glad you are experiencing it. Blessings on your school year.

  4. Thanks for sharing – I too saw it on the CC Facebook page. I’ve been feeling so overwhelmed (and I’m not even tutoring this year!) that last night I started researching local public & private schools. I needed this encouragement today.

    • Good! I am glad you were encouraged. No matter what you decide…listen to HIS voice and don’t be anxious! He’s got this even too and the fact that you started research last night did not take him by surprise. Praying for peace for you!

  5. I NEEDED to read this tonight. I had an epic fail day in motherhood. So thankful His mercies are new every morning. Thank you for the encouragement!

    • Amen! Go Jesus! He’s got you. Praying His PEACE will flood over you tonight and tomorrow and as you go into this next school year!

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